A few days ago, I was walking to the park, letting the breeze hit my face. (This is something I do a lot of the time. I do it as my second exercise of the day, but also to talk to God). When the wind brushes against my face, I have a habit of saying “Lord, I feel You in the wind.” Just a little thing between God and me.
Anyway, as I was walking, a thought occurred to me; “one minute you are 5 years old and before you know it, if you’re lucky, you are 55 or maybe 65.” It is wonderful to be alive, isn’t it? My mom died at 28 years old, so I’d always feared that I would die before I made it to 28. I am still alive and far pass the wonderful tender age of 28 and I am so grateful.
Still, I have been thinking about my mortality lately, especially since several people I’d worked with over the years recently passed.
The reality that there is more life behind me than what is in front of me, is daunting. The reality of my humanness causes me to either push the thoughts out of my mind or I sit and contemplate what’s next. The latter can cause stress because, let’s face it, I want to live forever. Don’t you? Maybe I will feel differently at 90 or 100, but I don’t feel like leaving this world anytime soon.
In fact, I dread the thought of leaving this world. Not because I don’t know what is on the other side, I just don’t think in my humanness, I cannot accept that I will no longer be here in the thick of things.
Listen, I sure don’t want this blog to be a downer, so let’s talk about the time we do have on they earth. What will I do with the time I have?
I want to make every day matter. I want to get up each day and get going. I want to do things that will make an impact on others and on me! I just do. I can’t imagine not going after my dreams, whether that means trying to run my own business or trying my hand at a new job. It is traveling to places I have never been, experiencing people and things I have never experienced. I want to tell people about Jesus, but I also want to show people Jesus through acts of kindness. I want to offer hope to others and I want to share in the joy other people experience as they learn how to make their own dreams come true. I want to get up each day and run. I want to write books and articles and I want to speak to the masses. That’s a lot!
What about you? What is it that you have always wanted to do and just didn’t feel that you were qualified to do? Or maybe you just felt scared. There is no better time than now. There is no better reason than you simply want to try.
Occasionally, I remind myself that tomorrow isn’t promised and I then ask myself, what is it that you want to do? I then turn to the scriptures and try to hear what God has to say to me because it’s what He says that matters; not what other people “think” I should do. How about you?
First and foremost, what should matter is your relationship with Jesus; never forget that. I make plans for tomorrow, but I also know full well that I may plan, but it is God who determines my steps (Proverbs 16:9). Knowing this also keeps me humble as I pursue my goals. Seek Him first in all things (Matthew 6:33).
James writes (4:13-14a), “Come now, you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit.’ Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow.”
Life is short. What will you do with the time you have been given? Make it matter.